Thanksgiving is my absolute favorite holiday. You get to cook and eat a lot of food, have a huge gathering of your loved ones, and play Christmas music before the stress of buying Christmas presents. And you get to eat a lot of food! Did I mention the food part already?
In all seriousness, I am thankful for a lot of things from this year. Thankful for good health, family, friends, and the traveling. Sure there have been downers in the year, but I think there has been more positive things in my life that can help with some healing. I'm incredibly thankful for my graduate career at USC. During school, like many other institutions, there's a lot of competition, stress, and self doubt. There's also the feeling of "is this investment worth it?" or "am I really getting a bang for my buck?" Even being out of school, those questions always come up. So what was the point? It comes back to the self doubt. Now that there is no daily routine, it's hard to see how far you've progressed and grown.
As much as it might have felt like a "bad investment" during school and times when I feel completely lost, it's times like these when I remember how lucky I am. I'm from Maryland, had no connections to the film and TV industry, knew I had to take a leap, and here I am shadowing one of the best multi-cam directors in the business on a show that I love. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for USC and working my butt off to learn from the best of the best. Equipment and resources aside, I learned how to tell a story from the top people in the industry, and I'm continuing to do so. I'm proud of it, and I'm thankful for it. I love this world that I've grown into, and I am excited everyday I go to work. I hope one day I'll be able to pay it forward to a fellow Trojan, and have them shadow me on a show or a film. Without USC, I wouldn't be where I am today.
It's scary not knowing what the next step is, and easy going back to self doubt and the "did I make a huge mistake?" and running home. But hopefully my experiences, this blog, the people I've met, will remind me not to fall back into the dark. Because the scary part isn't what is behind you. The scary part is the path not paved in front of you. And from the words of the incredible Stephen Flick, "It's good that you're scared. It means you're doing something right. So do it."